a frayed knot

i find myself at the end of my rope

computer repairman was here this morning for 3 hours, thought he’d fixed my computer, i paid him $252 & he left to see another customer & turns out the computer is exactly the same as when he arrived. you turn it on & there’s a blinking white cursor and that is all. i’ve been in asheville 5 months & this is the first time i’ve gone hysterical crying which i guess is good and bad. he’s coming back to pack the computer up & take it to their shop & fix it for real and for good. i can only hope.